Quick Update - If only...

Wow, I just checked the date of my last entry and was shocked that it was way back in August!

It has been a hectic time for me both professionally and personally so I thought I'd give a quick update of what has been happening.

Luckily for me I've been away on a wonderful vacation which took my partner and I to Queensland where we spent time swimming at the Great Barrier Reef and hiking the Daintree Forest. It was a childhood dream of mine to see both of these most wonderful world treasures and it was a special time for me to finally realise it.

Spending time away also created a few emotional delimmas for me. I don't know if this is just something that happens only to certain people but I feel really unsettled. I have found it very difficult to settle back into a routine of 9 to 5 life. I'm not sure if it's simply a case of catching the travel bug or something deeper than that. It has left me wondering what exactly I am contributing. To be honest, when you go to somewhere like the Great Barrier Reef, you just feel the complete enormity and power of nature. It's actually hard to put into words just how much this trip has impacted me. A part of me wants to just sell up, find good work somewhere rural (south western Australia) and get away from city life. One problem, finding good paying work in rural areas is difficult in this field!

I then got back to work to find that my position is now under review. I don't think this means they will let me go but possibly change the scope of my role altogether. This did not help with my current feelings about work at all! I guess this is one downside of Government. At any rate, I really have no idea what the powers that be will want me to do or change. It is a little dis-heartning. I was told (off the record) that there is a concern at a higher level about what I do because they don't undertand the technology. This just totally shocked me on a couple of levels. The first being that I find it hard to believe that people in positions of importance can be so ignorant of what is happening in our world with technology.

The second being that because they don't understand it, they immediately put up barriers and panick about keeping a role that is dedicated to advancement.

Needless to say, it's been an unwelcome stress and not something that I want to be dealing with at the moment.

I'm not sure if it's female intuition or just me taking it too seriously but I am starting to look at other options and opportunties. I really don't want to leave because I believe strongly in the technology but perhaps I'm working for a employer who just isn't going to be able to grasp it in the future.

I think another trip to the Great Barrier Reef is in order! I need to win lotto.....